The Good, The Bad & The Ugly of using Glow

Before I used Glow I can honestly say I was in the dark, I knew the basics of how to get pregnant: use your app to see your fertile window -have sex during your fertile window. That was it!

I have visited some online forums where the strange acronyms presented themselves, BFP BFN AF DH BD etc etc to me it was just an ordinary day where woman wanted input not knowing that these woman where actually scrutinising every single symptom they experienced. I found out the hard way. Three months ago I joined Glow to see what it was all about, boy was I in for a shocker. there was a community full of woman who like me where trying to conceive or shall I say TTC. I got caught up in the web of scrutinising all my symptoms hell I even started checking my cervix On a daily basis I became so lost in the whole baby making process I was certain I was pregnant month after month only to be told otherwise by my

hpt test or shall I say tests. I used to buy so many hpts and where I live we can only get them in a pharmacy so you can imagine the first month the teller gave me a weird look as I bought out the whole supply of pregnancy tests because yes I became a POAS addict the next month was even worse no matter how I tried to hide my face and act like it wasn't me I knew she recognised me. I yet again bought all of the tests. only to be completely heartbroken by negative after negative tests.

this month I walked into the pharmacy and she looked at me, before I even asked her she said to me we only have four left our stock will arrive next week. As I got back into the car my husband looked at me and asked what was wrong oh if only he knew that im an addict i waa to ashamed to ask him to drive me to another pharmacy. I needed my fix I needed to get home and stare at my clearly negative pregnancy test. I felt ashamed of myself since when was I like this?

With that hard hitting realisation I am confronting my addiction and my obsession. I finally know how other woman feel like, I know what they are going through and I just want to say I am Very Very Sorry that you have to go through all this month after month. I wish I was as strong but three months of obsessing is good enough for me. I want out, I NEED out.

May you all finally get your BFP ♡♥ ★☆