I wish i could get you to understand the damage you have done to me mentally.. I have been trying but you don’t get it.. you are so mean and hurtful with your words.. which causes me to shut down.. i love you i do and i want to be with you but you just don’t get it.. you don’t even try to understand.. i am doing everything in my power to become a better me and it seems like it’s not enough.. like it’s not good enough for you.. you hold everything over my head like you have been the perfect person our whole relationship.. you have done as much damage ad i have.. my depression had made things worse and i will take accountability for that.. i am doing what i need to do for me.. but for now i am going to have to take a step back from you.. there is no being friends and checking in with each other... I don’t care how you are doing and I don’t want you to know how i am doing.. i hope that i am out of this house soon cause you definitely won’t be invited.. that will be my space and I don’t want you there.. the only time i want to see you is for counseling and that will be the only time i want to talk to you.. it will be best for me.. and hopefully for us in the end.. but right now from the bottom of my heart i want to say 🖕🏽you.. i hate you for the way you make me feel.. i am tired and i have had enough.. you aren’t perfect.. dummy.. ugh!! I swear i want to say this shit to your face but I won’t i will make the necessary changes i need to and hopefully you follow suit.. if not of fucking well.. to hell with your judgmental ways..