I have been here for you since my freshman year in highschool, I'm a Senior now and I have done everything I possibly can to tell you or show show you how much I love you. I finally got the courage to tell you I loved you on January 17th 2018, I told you I love you, it took a good two days to reply to me the only reason you replied to me was because I said can I ask you something and you have to be honest you said okay and I said what did you feel about what I told you and you said don't get me wrong I like you but we could never be a thing that was the most painful message I've ever read in my whole entire life, it killed me a little inside and even though after you told me that I even asked you if our parents hadn't met could we be a couple or do you see us being together and you said yes. I know it was a lie and on December 25th of 2017 you told me if I don't know everything when I turned 17 with you and your son I said yes and all the other things you've ever told me the past three years has been a lie in the moment I read that message it clicked nothing you ever said met anything to you but it meant the world to me. You contunuisly bring other girls around me but if you want sex when no one else is around you come to me. It hurts me so much inside, the day I told you I was thinking of going into the Air Force I figured you'd be like no stay or care more than you did. All you said, that's good that's a lot of benefits. I said it sucks because I won't be able to see anybody or see your son grow up and I'll be gone a long time I probably won't even be in the same state. And you didn't reply to any of that. I still love you and continue to tell you and do anything you want me to do. You get upset whenever I tried cutting you off and the moment you text me you know you'll have me into your finger again and you make me feel like it's my fault, you make me feel like it's my fault that even though you hurt me and I try to leave you make me feel like I'm hurting you when I know you could care less I love you so much and I just don't know how much longer I can take it.