32 weeks and want to give birth now

I seriously can't take it anymore. I've been having constant contractions since 27 weeks. I can't sleep. The pain just gets worse and worse and I'm miserable. I'm so depressed and cry all the time. I hate this. I've been to L&D twice and I'm closed so they're just the kind of contractions that torture you but don't actually do anything.

I just want this baby to come now. I know he will be a preemie but I feel like we are both better off if he is born now.

I keep wishing my water will just break already and I can be done. I'm so done.