I had an MC on August 18/18 and it has been a rough couple of months. Had a embolization surgery and today this happened.

I want to be happy but I'm worried. I'm worried that I lose this one too. That something is going to go wrong. My 3-month post surgery check up is on January 21 and I don't know what is going to happen now. I need to know my HCG levels and i guess I'll go from there.

It's Christmas and my head is filled with "what ifs". I wish i knew the outcome, i wish i could be happy and not second guess everything i do.... Help.