So I am a Christian. I go to church. But I try to get out of it whenever I can. I don’t know why! I don’t know if it’s because I moved up, or if my pastor left, or if I haven’t connected with Jesus and have just given up. I am in Oregon visiting family and my grandpa really wanted us to go to his church and I stayed behind with my younger brother and dad. WHY DO I NOT LIKE GOING TO CHURCH!? My mom made me feel bad and when I waved my sister goodbye, she looked at me and mouthed “HAPPY?” NO I AM NOT FRICKING HAPPY!!! WHY AM I LIKE THIS????