Is it wrong that it took me this long to finally feel something?

I had a chemical pregnancy at 5 weeks it wasn’t confirmed by a doctor but I had gotten a faint positive then after being 10 days late I started having heavy bleeding different from a period then took a test 3 days ago it was faint then took another for the next 2 days negative but it just hit me last night. I feel so upset as to why it happened and will I get pregnant this month. Sorry just needed to vent I feel like I don’t want to talk to any of my friends or family about this.