I hate my sexuality

i completly get you, i feel the same way, I have a crippling fear that I will not find someone to be with me, i am from Colombia in south America and it's a very Latin, catholic country, but just known you are not alone.

I relate so much to what you’re saying. I grew up in a very conservative Christian setting and the internalized homophobia is a real thing. It has taken me a long long time to become happy with who I am. I’m sorry you are living in a place that does not support you. Do you have a support system in place for yourself?If you don’t mind my asking, would you consider yourself a Christian/a person of some kind of faith? The hardest part for me was reconciling my faith with my being gay. I had to get to a place where I realized God is 100% good with me before I could be good with me...does that make sense?

one day you will be in a more accepting place, i know its hard but you just have to stay strong. you will be happier, it just takes a bit of time to get there. make the most of what you have. stay safe out there <3