Dear LIFE (advice pls)

SO!!! All of us on here have problems you all moan (not that way)😏 we have flaws things we hate about others and especially ourselves if you think your perfect you don’t need to read this but just to set it straight NOBODY is perfect 👌🏻 Maybe your eyebrows are perfectly shaped and your body is shaped like a model the perfect dream body and you can talk normally have perfect teeth don’t stress cause life is easy don’t need to wear makeup because your face is perfectly clear and you have long eyelashes long brown, blonde hair......😳 i’m the opposite of all of them are you?? or are you just any perfect plastic barbie ever💃🏻

Im stressed about getting into college they just keep setting the bar higher and higher for grades so i need to revise but i cant revise in my own home i get distracted no matter what i do at the same time i’m trying to stay healthy and fit i have millions of products to help me with my acne (i swear i’m adopted but no i’m not i just get all of my genes from my dads side of the family)🤦‍♀️My mums side of the family look like they dropped out of Beyonce mixed with Kylie Jenner and and Selena Gomez✨not joking 🙃 my family all look like models 😒 one of them is... 💩HELP!!! I also have that much revision i have triple the amount of homework 📚 i just want to forget it all but i cant because this is life!!😫

A while back i tried to self harm...But because i was trying to stay fit and healthy i didn’t want any scars so i cried all night and put a sterile cream on it all night constantly i thought 💭 writing down all the negative things down would help but... it didn’t it made it worse i kept trying to find things in my room to see what i could use to try and commit suicide umm...

Growing up lets say i experienced things a 6 year old never should have saw and heard my mum was abused by my dad and i was always awake whenever they had an argument or it happened the only reason my dad was like that is because he took cocaine and drank my mum came to me one night and told me if it ever happened again go and get help get out the house call 999 we left the house and stayed at a home where they find you a place to live and i spent my birthday there then my dad was sent to an anger management group where he had to talk to everyone about what he had done and how he was going to solve it and he did my mum would cry because she loved him so i was there as a 6 year old comforting her Then apparently he had changed and he had he stopped he has a good job with money and only drinks a little has a small smoke and thats it he’s caring all sorts but i still never forget what he was but whenever i talk about it with my mum she screams at me and says i’m being stupid so i talk to myself my dad beat up my grandad there was blood everywhere but only a small amount he left and we never saw him since but theres a story behind that i’ve hardly saw my dads side of the family because it’s complicated i have no grandparents because one stabbed her boyfriend to death on christmas <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> only because he was abusing her and shes been abused all her life by men even her dad and shes not allowed near kids another was the one who got beaten up by my dad but he was a shit dad because he was always in prison so my dad was raised by his grandad he has had a pretty rough life but he’s okay now another one always puts her needs above anything else like shes got a bad back and wont come out for my birthday or go to hospital to see my mum her daughter who has CF the other just abandoned my mum because he wanted a son not a daughter

I could go on about a lot if shit in my family but i know that thats all in the past but i have all the scars to show it my mum and dad are getting married in 2020 there together and happy bit deep down my dads the same and deep down my mums still scared of him i can see it...

Nobody’s ever gave me the right things to fix me because that’s impossible u cant just use super glue because then your just putting on a fake smile which is what i have been doing for a while nobody can understand what anybody goes through mentally and physically only yourself but people can still be there for you but it doesn’t make the pain go away it just helps you find your bestie i know everyone has problems and mine aren’t the worse but how can others know what others go through when nobody talks about it then it only hurts more.....