Every month when af arrives I get so disappointed. Every month I start to convince myself that the sensitive nipples, sore boobs, weird appetite, etc. are early pregnancy symptoms and it gives me hope. But then my period starts. I HATE that the symptoms for both are the same!! And I HATE that every month I get that dreaded visit from AF.  I've been told by my doctor that it's gonna be tough for me to conceive. I have a lot of factors against me, and I'm starting to feel reproductively challenged. This past Saturday I started. And I lost it. It was soooo hard to hold back the tears and the feeling of despair. Why can't I be "normal?!!" Why can't I just have sex while I'm fertile and make a baby?! Why do I have to take pills, and thoroughly map out a plan to conceive?! I just want it to happen, the way God intended for us females. I think what makes me the most upset, is thinking that I can't do what women are created to do naturally.  Reproduce. Does anyone else ever feel like this? How do you make this feeling of hopelessness go away? It's so frustrating.