Pregnancy and mental health?

This pregnancy is definitely contributing to my struggle with my mental health. I have managed my depression semi-ok this pregnancy, I know I could probably cope better but I don't know how. I am closely monitored because of my history with post partum depression but I still feel out of control.

I was diagnosed with two subchorionic hematomas at 10 weeks. After huge hemorrhaging with large clots, I assumed I was losing my baby. In fact, the ER resident told me I was. I endured weeks and weeks of bleeding, constant doctors visits, ultrasounds. The only cure of course was time. Also, during this time I was taken off my anti-depressant as it is known to cause abnormal bleeding. By 25 weeks, my SCH appeared to have resolved. Life and pregnancy seemed to resume to normal. I returned to my anti-depressant but opted for a half dose.

Except now, I have been under a stupid amount of stress that I struggle to cope with. My psychiatrist says I am being too hard on myself. Compared to where I was 4 years ago, I am a totally different person. Also in this time, I had to discontinue my rheumatoid arthritis medication, Humira, because I opted not to have my babies immune system additonally comprised by the medication. Unfortunately, I am not one of the women who goes into remission pregnant. So my chronic pain and malice has returned as well. I have issues at work as well and it has really created a lot of emotional strain.

Now, I am having irritable uterus or whatever they call it now. With my second, 8 years ago my doctor called it labor with little to no cervical change. I am 35.5 now, have been constantly contracting since Sunday. My hips, lower back and abdomen feel like I have been to a HIIT class for the first time in a year.

I am absolutely miserable, not physically but mentally and emotionally. I was induced at 39.2 with my second for this "irritable uterus", at 36 weeks I was 0cm and by time I was induced I was 5cm.

I have conflicting feedback as to where I am at with my dialation and effacement. They tell me one thing, record another. Regardless of that, I need to discuss with my doctor about what we do now? Complications are sometimes more than high blood pressure and gbs I guess. Idk if that makes sense. The risk of me developing a depression because of chronic pain and fatigue is a real concerning complication.