Threw a gender reveal today... for my best friend.

Super excited for her. But every time I congratulated them I noticed myself tearing up. Now I feel selfish because I think I'm realizing I'm a little upset that I'm having troubles conceiving my second child after the pill. It's been four months. Not too long, but long enough to hurt. I'm excited for them. This is their rainbow baby. It's a boy. I try to keep my spirits up, but at the end of the day there's still part of me that is starting to get worried that I did something to make myself have troubles conceiving since I took birth control. I took it before I had my first and immediately got pregnant when I stopped. This time it's different. I don't understand. Eh. I'm just sad. And it's okay to be sad. Because tomorrow I'll be okay again and keep pushing and having hope. I know it'll happen when the time is right. 🖤🤞🏼