My happy moment (long)

First off I would like to thank everyone that has commented and still is commenting on my last post about needing positivity... well as we approach the new year and I'm going into it without my husband which is heartbreaking but I would like to share a good moment from my day so far I was laying down in our bed with my kids this early morning, my son is awake and being crazy just like his daddy and my daughter was beside me nursing and honestly I was avoiding going through everything that I need to do and there's a picture of me and my husband on the night stand from our wedding and my son points at it and smiles because at this time I was getting both of them ready to go see their Grammy (his mom) and I immediately just hug my son and say that's right baby there's daddy and the tears come my happy moment for the day like my babies know their daddy 😭😍I don't want them to ever forget him because we will and are still a family and then our friend has become family S calls me and he could tell I was crying but that's nothing new lately all I could muster up to words to say is they know"!!! ... hey my baby it's me again as you know thank you for sending me my sign I need you more than anything ever I can't wait until the day we become whole again you may not be here physically right now but keep on loving us through it.. our son Jr carries your name and I promise you I will always tell our son how much you prayed longed and wanted a boy in then once we found out we were expecting a daughter as well I called you crying because I was scared to raise two. But yet you were so happy and excited you touched my belly everyday/night saying "daddy loves you" please always walk along side us as we go into the new year/year(s) to come without you 💔😭 love your baby girl -wifey- 💙

Until the next update keep on praying for us