so i’ve been hanging out with a guy for a week, and i’ve never had a relationship before or anything but i’m feeling like this isn’t going to turn into a dating relationship, more like friends with benefits. i’m attracted to him and he likes me, and when we were hanging out he took things very slowly and was respectful of me. last night we hung out and hooked up, but i told him i wasn’t ready for sex yet. he respected that and we did other things, but i literally went 0 to 100 because before that night i had only ever kissed someone and we basically did everything except sex. i know we’re going to do it again, but i don’t know if i want to have sex or if we should just keep messing around.

on one hand, i’m starting to think virginity is kindof a stupid concept and that having sex will just be an uneventful thing, but on the other hand i kindof want it to be special the first time. i’m not sure if i’m completely ready, but i’m definitely more comfortable with the idea than i have been before.

idek what to do!! help me out please