I am yet again disappointed this month. I was hoping that this was my time (lucky 13). This afternoon however I started to have some spotting to a light flow. I don't want to give up, but I am feeling hopeless. I want to be a mother so bad and all these negative tests and at the end the dreaded AF shows up. I am at a loss. I have so many people around me that just found out that are pregnant or recently had a baby. I try to be happy for them, but the green eyed monster comes out.