Tonight I had to walk away while putting my daughter to sleep. It was the third time in two hours that I had to try and put her back to sleep. Fourteen endless nights of this hell. She’s an awful sleeper but I can usually get a few hours alone each night. Not tonight. I’ve just had it. It’s so exhausting to be screamed at and hit and bit (I nurse most of the time) all because she’s exhausted but won’t go to sleep. I finally had her sleep and went to lay her in her crib and then she was awake and screaming. I couldn’t do it again. It took me an hour to get there. I left and buried my head in my pillow. Fourteen months of this ridiculous, non-existent sleep. I need a break.