I don't know why, but romance repulses me


This is really just a self analysis. I am still young, 17 turning 18 in 3 months, so theres a possibility I could change. My whole life I've been disinterested in romantic relationships. While girls my age fantasized about getting married and having a family I never really desired that. Through the years I've had two boyfriends. One I broke up with after a week because the constant hugging and handholding gave me a fingernails on a chalkboard feeling. The second I broke up with after 2 months due to similar reasons. The weird thing is that I love sex. I love casual and carefree sex, but the moment love or romance is involved I get very uncomfortable. I really dont know why I am like this. I had a good childhood and nothing extremely traumatic has happened to me. This is just how I am. Does anyone else feel this way or am I just a weirdo lol.