I just need advice/support

My husband is an addict (very functioning) and narcissistic...during the time I lived with him he was narcissistically, verbally, psychologically,mentally, every way abusive but never hit me. We got pregnant on our honeymoon, and he was a different person than I dated the day we married...it slowly unraveled. I held on too long. I was scared of him.

I left for good in October. I don’t know HOW to snap out of this funk...I quite literally feel heartbroken it physically hurts, I hurt for him, bc he isn’t mentally well. My daughter is truly the happiest kid. But I can’t file for divorce until April. And when that happens it will be nasty, bc his mom is his enabler. She called DHR on me...I’m like, 🤭...I cried SO hard simply because I can’t stand the thought of him manipulating his way into having any form of custody.

How can I get past my feelings? Get stronger and get things done. I’m so depressed. I’ve been diagnosed with aPTSD (but big deal...it’s like the 5th time for separate reasons) I was in a car accident in 2010 and suffered a traumatic brain injury to the frontal lobe and I struggle with my coping skills. Emotions big time. I’m finally seeing a therapist whom I love but she is expensive-I am on disability and that’s all the money we get. He doesn’t give us money. He never has. Guys-any advice-prayers, Jesus is amazing He will lead us...and he has been!!! We got an apartment! We are moving in now. I also am applying for any government assistance that I can!

I just don’t know how to separate my feelings and emotions (detach) and just prioritize...