I am so excited to be just over 10 weeks away from meeting my first baby. My little girl. My princess.

But I can’t help but feel like I’m so far behind. I’m a FTM and have 0 idea what I should be doing, besides to keep myself healthy for me and baby girl.

I get asked “what are your plans for when you return to work?” — idk! I know that child care is incredibly expensive, and that I’m not sure how I will ever afford it. But I also don’t have a plan with my family either.

I am reading about different hospital policy/procedures, which my drs have never gone over with me— and I never even knew to ask about.

Just this weekend i read to find a pediatrician in your 2nd trimester, get a hospital bag together, etc.

I have been experiencing an incredible amount of anxiety about being so far behind and so uneducated about this whole process. It makes me feel like an idiot for not looking more into these things and asking questions. I just never know what questions to ask, or how to get information on certain things. It’s so much to process and so little time to do it all in.