This might be quite a long post..

I’m 17 and I’d say for the past year or so every fibre of my being wants to be a mother. I have always been very motherly, I’ve always loved caring for children and babysitting, I’ve always been very good with them. But the past few months the urge has grown stronger and stronger I find myself thinking about having a baby every day. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not some naive inexperienced teenager, I know how hard looking after a baby is and I know I have my whole life ahead of me and I know nothing can really prepare you for motherhood. Now I don’t intend on getting pregnant, I’m going to uni in September and that’s going to take 4 years in total. But it’s almost as though something is missing, it’s almost like I had a baby once that’s how huge the hole feels (obviously I am not comparing my longing for motherhood to a loss of a baby). I watch a tv programme where back in 2000 a girl on there had a baby when she was a teenager and their relationship now and always is perfect and imactually sat there crying wishing I had that. Is there something wrong with me because none of my friends have any motherly instincts or longings at all, in fact they’re repulsed by the thought of having a baby now. But I can honestly say if I got pregnant I wouldn’t be upset, I wouldn’t even mind giving up my career because all I want is to be a mother desperately. But that’s not going to happen and I just wish I could have a child or just fast forward to the future.

Edit: Just to clarify I am not going to get pregnant because I want my child to be financially secure and I want a career.