Fear of pregnancy

I feel like a weirdo for having such an immense fear of pregnancy. I wanna have sex, but i’d be bad at keeping track of BC pills and too afraid of its side effects. I know theres plan B, but there will be that one time when it won’t work.

I know we can use condoms too, but ive had two incidences where they broke and i had extreme anxiety over it and i just stopped seeing that fwb. I havent had sex for two years now.

There are so many other factors in my personal life too that just keep me from having sex.

I dont know what to do anymore.