In September 2018 I had a miscarriage and it destroyed me, we were in no way ready or trying for a baby but I had been told for years I was incapable of conceiving and losing my first pregnancy after only finding out about it 2 days before my miscarriage I was completely distraught and depressed. My boyfriend didn’t understand at all and was relieved we weren’t going to have a child before we were ready. Eventually I started coming to terms with accepting that it wasn’t the time for us and most likely for the best. But fast forward to November almost December and I found pictures of another girls ass in his phone that he had taken while I was standing right behind him as we were in line for the voting polls. Now I am still finding it so hard to trust him and it makes me so nervous anytime he is on his phone or there is a girl around. He’s having lunch with one of his friends tomorrow who also “just happens to be” a girl who he openly admits to having a crush on in high school and she is very touchy and clingy to him ESPECIALLY when I’m around. He claims they are just friends and she is just protective of him but I don’t buy it. It’s been eating at me for 1 week since he told me they were meeting for lunch and especially so because of their history and the whole picture incident! Someone help me out here please! I’m going crazy!!