Confused about others pregnant!

My hubby and I have been ttc for 8 months and recently found out my friend is pregnant and sister in law and a co worker just had an abortion.. I'm so hurt idk what to think any more I want a baby so bad I was sopposed to start my period today but nothing yet hoping this is the month for a bfp! Howeve every time I see my sister in law or friend I freak out and start feeling really wierd and awkward and just wanna go home..my hubby knows I'm hurting about this but he also thinks I need to be positive or it might not happen for me because I'm so confused mad stressed and frustrated..​