Ex best friend “rap” song😬

So I wrote a “rap” song to get my feelings out about my (ex) best friend who I had known for a long time. We use to be close and then she started drifting away from our friendship. I told her how I felt and she said she was sorry and would try to fix it... but it was never enough for me because I was use to the way things use to be and didn’t want the change. I felt like i was putting in all the effort and she was just going along with it. I kind of stopped trying with her and we haven’t talked in a year... so because we never really addressed it this is like my closure. Even though I would never show her this song😅

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-We met in second grade

Through the neighborhood

I didn’t know it then

But soon she’d be my friend

I thought we’d be together

Until the very end

Now I can clearly see

That this was a fake dream.

-We were introduced

Through a big girly group

Didn’t really hangout much

She wasn’t anything like an alpha

Sometimes I’d notice her

Speak up for something small

But then she’d turn away

Like it’s not important at all.

-The group soon drifted apart

But we came closer at heart

Started sharing deep secretive things

Like one losing a virginity

I wish I had a boyfriend

But it didn’t matter around her

Cause she made it feel

like that gap was already filled.

-When we’d be hanging out

She didn’t seem to enjoy it

We would do basic things

Like duetting in musical.lys

Sometimes we’d drive the rhino,

Or a game called find the items

Maybe play hide and seek

But those were just basic things.

-Then when she got a boyfriend

She started excluding me

Like as if she was saying “Girl, Excuse me”

I started noticing

That I felt like I had to compete

For a moment of her time that I deserve to keep.

-She started replacing me

As if I wasn’t doing enough

Or planning much or not giving her things

With a girl she had known for merely 4 months

That’s not even enough

Not long enough to compare to.. me.

-I know It shouldn’t be a reason

But I can’t help the feeling

That I’m not good enough

Or that I’m doing half bad

But now I know that its not me

That I shouldn’t blame myself

For someone who’s acting so..selfish.

-Its sad that she doesn’t care

That she thinks of me no-where

Because I gave up a part of my time

Trying to make this turn out right

But now I have to let go

Even though I feel so low

What we had just didn’t fit

Im sorry I had to write this shit.

-She’s too busy for me

Always with her boyfriend

When I try to hang

She tells me she’s with bae

It might be the jealousy

Or the fact that she’s my go to

Maybe it’s the whole boyfriend aspect

But what about friends forever and that shit.

-This was suppose to last forever

A lot of promises were made

How I wanted to go on a trip

4 months around the states

It was a crazy idea

And would be a long one

But I was ready for it

And was hoping you would be too.

-Guess we’re all done

The promises are through

No more pressure to choose between us two

I have made it simple for you

Im just one of those friends

That use to be in your life and now *poof* Im out, i guess all is right.

-I wish you the best

Like all the rest

That even though I’m mad

You shouldn’t feel bad

This was bound to happen

Even if we didn’t want it to

Because we are just not alike

And to this I say goodbye.

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Sorry it’s so long but I was too embarrassed to post the video of me singing it🤣