I started seeing a counselor that specializes in miscarriage and infant loss and she recommended that I name the baby I lost at 5 weeks because it’s shown to help with closure. We had a gender Neutral name picked out but I just didn’t feel comfortable giving that name to my baby as it would mean not naming the baby after my mom. So we looked at the name Jonas which means dove. Doves symbolize peace. This miscarriage was heartbreaking. Absolutely nothing less. But it taught me a valuable lesson. I struggle with wanting to control every aspect of my life and truth be told I just absolutely cannot control everything. The miscarriage was 100% out of my control. In surrendering control is peace. Doves symbolize peace. So we decided to name my baby Jonas ❤️