So after 2 emotional weeks wondering how we will cope with baby number 5 on the way and then finally coming round to the idea and being happy about it I started spotting last night.. I didn't think much of it as I spotted until 10 weeks with my youngest but today I have full flow so I'm guessing I'm having a chemical.. it wasn't the best time or circumstances and at 1st I was terrified but I had quite gotten used to the fact we had another on the way.. I'm ok with this it wasn't meant to be but I was looking forward to it.. I don't plan on trying again I feel that would be irresponsible as the times not the best. Maybe we are done who knows. I wish you all a very happy and healthy pregnancy take Care of yourselves and those little beans 💕