UPDATE: EVERY REASON TO WORRY

I started having cramping and spotting Wednesday. Thursday they repeated my HCG and it’s not where it needs to be. They will recheck it on Monday to see if we’ve miscarried - but either way it isn’t progressing the way it should. I won’t know the results officially until Tuesday. In my heart I already know.

Today (Sunday) I’m having more consistent brown spotting and my cramps are more intense (like ramping up for my period).

Heartbroken doesn’t begin to cover it. I work in the medical field and have run my own differential diagnosis. It is unlikely this pregnancy is viable.

I know the statistics and the causes and everything. Being a week and a few days South of 40 doesn’t help.

Speaking of the birthday, I don’t think I’ll celebrate this year. Our first ultrasound was supposed to be the day before and I’m not much in the celebrating mood anymore.

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I held true and didn’t really celebrate this year. Close friends and family sent greetings but it was mostly just another day.

We went for our last ultrasound on 1/31 - exactly 1 month from our BFP. Blighted Ovum confirmed. My doctor was off so her colleague offered to perform D&C. I wanted to wait for my OB - but once my brain and heart got on the same page my body took over. We miscarried 1/31/2019. I’ll have my HCG repeated 2/18 - so far it hasn’t gone all the way back down.

Prayers to all and thanks for the support.