Lately I freak out every time I get in the shower, I panic my hear starts to race, a million things start going through my mind, I find my self gasping for air and needing to hurry and get out.

My husband and I were making love last night, thank god the lights were off. I had a complete melt down because he sucked my breast I felt trashy and Whore like.

My dreams have been overtly sexual but with random men I have never seen before. The last one was a really really fat guy going down on me, in the dream I hated it but came way I had an orgasm in real life and woke up soaked in wetness . And hated my self for that. Im not sure if this is normal but it makes me feel really nasty