I have been fighting this battle for about 6 months now. I am not sure what brought it on or why it is now becoming an issue.

I have been the victim of sexual abuse of sexual abuse three separate times in my life. Earliest was at about 4 years old, most recent being 18 years old.

I am 23 now. I am married and have a beautiful daughter.

Sex with my husband has always been phenomenal. We were always very well connected in the way. However, over the last 6 months, something has really changed and I’m having such a hard time with the whys behind it.

For the last 6 months, our sex life has been diminishing and it’s all my fault. I keep getting flashbacks from when I was so young. It’s like i can’t get thoughts and faces out of my mind years following abuse. I cringe because it’s like my body can’t telling the difference between pleasure and assault when I’m being touched. It hurts so bad.

All I want is to have a great sexual experience with my husband again. He doesn’t deserve to feel like he’s violating me when all I want is him.

If any one has tips or suggestions or has an idea as to what is wrong with me, i would greatly appreciate it.