What can I do for remembrance?💔

I lost my baby at 9 weeks. I can’t even go through the heartbreak and the pain, it’s numbed me completely. It’s been a few weeks since it happened, I’m holding up well. What’s been eating me away is that I don’t have any keep sakes, my pregnancy tests got threw away. Hospital refused me a scan photo of my little jelly bean, what do I have? A cot that’s never been put up. Little baby clothes that have never been worn, my maternity notes? What’s the best thing I could get as a remembrance?