Feeling like I just got used

Ugh. About a month ago I saw a young lady posting in the local classifieds that she was in need of baby boy essentials, her due date was two weeks away at the time and she had almost nothing. When I asked her what she needed she replied “I don’t even know, I’m just trying to figure it out as I go.” I have been saving all of Damon’s stuff in nice storage boxes labeled and organized by age, I really wanted to save as much as I could of Damon’s but I felt that someone else was in need. Our family has been so incredibly blessed to have more than we need for our little guy and I wanted to pay that forward. In the middle of moving, I went through everything I had saved, collected items for her, and delivered them to her myself .. completely free of charge. I gave her bottles, blankets, steam sterilization bags, pacifiers, clothing, a hat, mittens, car seat padding, a baby Freda essentials kit, sleep needs, wipes, diapers, among other things. Some with tags still on it, unopened.

Tonight, I was scrolling through the classifieds and she had posted almost everything I gave her up for sale. All still unopened. 😢 I didn’t want to give my boys stuff away but felt that it was the right thing to do. I don’t even donate to thrift shops because I truly believe in giving when I am able to, not allowing someone to profit from my unused belongings. I feel so burnt. Those belong to my boy. Gah.

I didn’t lose anything that was close to me. I kept everything that I needed and things that I had a special connection with. Bottles can be replaced but that doesn’t change the feeling of being taken advantage of.