EVERY TIME I THINK ITS MY MONTH AF SHOWS HER FACE WITH A VENGENCE.. I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND. WHEN I CONCEVIED LAST YEAR IT WAS A TOTAL SURPRISE BECAUSE I DIDNT THINK I COULD HAVE KIDS ANYMORE I HAD MY SON YOUNG AND HE IS NOW 13 SO 12 YEARS NOTHING THEN BAM ONLY FOR IT TO END IN A MISCARRIAGE IN SEPT OF LAST YEAR. I WAS SOO HEART BROKEN... MY COUSIN WAS THERE WITH ME AND SHE KNEW HOW MUCH IT HURT ME TO LOSE MY CHILD...NOW MY COUSIN IS PREGNANT SHE SMOKES CIGGERATES AND DOESNT REALLY WANT HER BABY ALL BECAUSE THE FATHER ISNT IN HER LIFE JUST VERY STUPID. I TRY NOT TO QUESTION GOD BUT I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND 😭😢😢😢 I LOVE MY COUSIN AND SHE HAS THE MOST PRECIOUS GIFT THAT ALL WOMAN ARE DYING TO HAVE BUT YET SHE IS CAUSING MORE HARM THAN GOOD.. IM NOT LOOKING FOR PITY JUST FEELING VERY DEFEATED...