So I’m 25 Weeks Pregnant and 21 years old and I still live with my mom and 4 siblings and I’m a first time mom. So I have a lot of responsibilities because I help my mom out when she’s not home So I Make Sure My Siblings They Eat, They Take Their Showers, Their Homework is Done Etc. But None of Them Listen Now Before I Was Pregnant I Would Usually Just Yell at Them But Now I Don’t Have the Time and Patience For That Anymore So I Now when They Don’t Listen I Just Ignore It I Mean These Aren’t My Kids I’m Not Gonna Keep Yelling at a Bunch of Kids That Know What There Suppose to do. But Since I’ve Stopped Yelling at Them it’s Gotten Worse I Hear Them Say Things Like “Well Shes Not going to Do Anything She’s Pregnant Now” “She Doesn’t Even Tell Mommy Half the Stuff We Do”. But I Have a sister Who’s Brain isn’t Chemically Functioning the Tight Way So When She Doesn’t Take Her Medicine She’s a Total Mess. So on Wednesday My Mom Asked Me to Take My 15 Y/O Sister to the Mall to Get Her Chested Measured and My 8 Y/O is Home with Me So of Course I Have to Take Her Also We Get In The Car She’s Perfectly Fine We Get to the Mall all Hell Breaks Loose. So I Just Want to Get this Girls Chest Done So We Can Leave, So I Tell My 8 Year Old Sister She Needs to Hold a Hand So I Grab Her Hand She’s Acting Out in The Mall in a Public Setting and I Already Don’t Wanna Be at the Mall 😭 So I’m Not Paying Her Any Attention ( Which Made It Worse Cause That’s All She’s Looking For) So I Let Her Walk Without a Hand but I’m Watching Her to Make Sure She’s Good. We Get to Pink & My Sister Gets Her Chest Measured and the 8 yr old is Screaming Here in the Store and it’s Like idk Why She’s Crying idk What Her Problem is. Moving forward now we’re in the car and I have to make a stop to the grocery store and I just send my 15 year old Sister in There only because I’m not about to go into this store with this screaming child (She was screaming and crying the whole time we was in the Car) Still Not Paying the screaming and crying Any Attention She Hits Me and That’s What Set Me Off Now I’m Yelling at Her Because Why Would She Ever Touch Me if I ain’t touch her. So Later That night I Actually Cried Myself to Sleep Because Now I’m Thinking to Myself like “Wow what if my child is like this how would I react I’m the worst parent ever” I Starting Looking up adoption like I Can’t Have this Baby come into this world with aunts and uncles Like This it’s just So Frustrating When I Have to deal with things like this Same thing Yesterday and This Morning With Her. Yesterday I was Crying and Didn’t Even Know Why I was Crying like I was so happy in the Morning then just started crying so idk Am I’m Just Stressed Out or Depressed