Being on top

Hey ladies. Wondering if any one can give me advice or words of encouragement. My partner and I have a lot of sex. Any position really. Doggie is our go to and favorite. I sometimes get on top but it's rare....

I feel awkward when I'm on top. Kinda like I freeze and then kinda panic and only last a few minutes then hop off like I've done something wrong. We always finsih though. It's super embarrassing. My partner is very patient and we talk about my insecurities about being on top. He says he understands he also encourages me saying that he really enjoys me being on top, watching me blah blah blah. I feel super bad. I know he likes it I know he wants me to ride him more. Help?!?!?