This is so embarrassing.

I’ve had NO sex drive or attraction to my husband this whole time I’ve been pregnant(20 weeks). Seriously it annoys me to try and hold hands, let along kissing. I’ve sucked it up and had sex with him some because he IS my husband and I know he has needs.

I’ve turned him down for about 2 weeks now and he asked if we could have sex tonight. I told him we needed some good foreplay to get me in the mood and he said he didn’t know what to do to get me in the mood anymore. (Honestly I don’t know what HE could do to get me in the mood either) so I suggested we watch some porn together.

I honestly did try to get in the mood watching it but the thought of having sex with him afterwards was just preventing anything like that. He was already hard and asked if it was helping and I said no not really. He told me to find a different one and I said “I really don’t think any of these will work. We will just use lube and do it. I’m just not getting in the mood. I’m sorry” and he said “well I sure should be used to that!” And it crushed me and I started to cry. I honestly tried and was still willing to fulfill his needs even though I wasn’t turned on at all. He ended up apologizing and saying he didn’t mean to hurt me. When I wouldn’t stop crying he said “well think how it makes me feel always being turned down” and I responded with “I’m so sorry. I can’t help my hormones. I was trying tonight to not turn you down and give you sex” he ended up walking away and is now in the living room watching tv and I’m in bed crying.

What is wrong with me and my body! I’m so hurt that he said that to me especially considering I was TRYING tonight 😭 I tried so hard!

*editing to say I didn’t turn him down tonight. I told him I just needed some lube to be able to do it. I’ve also gave him blow jobs(while being so sick this pregnancy that ivelost 30 pounds) because he said a handjob wasn’t good enough. I’ve really tried to fulfill his needs even tho I do turn him down for sex often. I can’t help it 😭