So I'm a backup caretaker for my cousins since my aunt and her boyfriend were tested positive for drugs. I've had problems with her on and off because she's been wanting to take the kids places (only because her boyfriend tells her too) but she never lets me know until the last minute. I'm not going to drop my whole life for you and on top of that my grandparents try and get me to go, but last time I checked I'm not the only caretaker here and not the main one, so?? I also didn't feel like my aunts boyfriend should be around since he was the main one who caused this. Ok look, I'm not saying marijuana is bad, but when you're rolling in front of a fucking kid, have you lost your mind???

In the mornings I would go with my aunt to drop the kids off until she started telling my grandpa she'd take them herself, she didn't tell him why but she told me so she wouldn't have to waste gas, like bitch wtf?? Just change the schools so I can take them since you don't have money. On top of that she uses my cousins child support for whatever she wants and even asks my grandparents for gas money 😭 Now my cousins are on break and they left last week with their grandparents (they have different dads) and I left to mom to spend time over there. Now I had created a fake page just to see my aunt's boyfriend's page on fb (then I found out my aunt had blocked all family members from his page) so I'm checking his stuff out and see my cousins are there on New Year's, so I'm like??? Wtf??? They're supposed to be with their grandparents not with her. So I'm like getting mad and thinking my grandparents let her take them since they've been letting her take them and telling her it's her fault if she gets the kids taken away or they try to blame me for not going with her. So on New Year's they posted videos of the kids popping fireworks and then they have all these people at their house and they're smoking and drinking while the kids are upstairs. I'm So fed up because I showed my grandma the video and showed her the dates but she's convinced the kids are still with their grandparents. I'm going to take my name off the paper because I refuse to get in trouble and I know some of you are thinking "well you already are for not saying anything" but it's just that I don't want to cause any heartache if they get taken away. I can't deal with this anymore and I just found yesterday that I'm pregnant. I'm so excited and happy, but I can no longer stress myself out over this situation when no one else wants to do what's right. I indeed signed the papers to help out but only because of the kids, fuck my aunt. She did me dirty before this but I signed for the kids and even dropped all the hatred and hurt I felt for her. If I could I would be the main caretaker and give them everything that their mom can't because she feels a man who can pay the bills and buy her beer is worth more than her kids having actual beds. They sleep on fucking mattresses in a dirty ass room. Shame. Just shame. I know the kids won't go back to her and probably will never since her and her boyfriend refuse to change their habit. It just makes me upset and angry to see this all happen and feel like no one else cares as much as I do. What do you guys think?

If you made it this far, thank you for listening to me vent.