Baby fever

So baby fever is kicking in big time for me. I'm hesitant though cause I'm 37 and I had many complications with my first. With my first baby, I found out she had a bowel blockage and would need surgery after birth and then I had 4 bleeds and started hemorrhaging during the induction process. My blood pressure dropped in the scary zone twice during my c-section and I remember fighting to stay awake at one point. I think I was slipping and pretty sure if I had I aloud myself to close my eyes I would have coded. I really wanted another baby but I dont know if I want to take the chance of something going wrong. I know my boyfriend wants another one as well and time is not on our side. I just dont know what to do....