Hoped this was my month

DF

Hi. Sorry I'm new to the group and have to learn the language. Finally found some courage to share my situation too. After having my IUD removed last Aug and seriously trying for a little one ever sinc, I'd hoped at 41, I could beat the odds and conceive naturally, at least within the next few months. I understand the science but maybe, like most of us, I still hoped my health was good enough. After testing and seeing my fertility doctor I decided to use a little help in December. Counted days, had a little fun, and was a day late this month only to spot on what would be my second cycle day. Since my IUD was removed, each cycle was super heavy on day one for 5 days. Heavier than I've ever had in my life. This month a, super light flow, if I could call it that, and dark brown w some cramping last night. 2 CVS tests seemed inconclusive w light blemishes but this morning, a clear blue reflected negative. I have no idea what was happening. I guess it back to basics.