So here is the jist of it, I’ve been working as much as possible to provide for our family. Me, my significant other our 6 month old baby, and now my 18 yr old brother who is finishing up his senior year.

This month to be able to keep up with the bills and just the minimal needs I would have to make sure I didn’t miss any of my scheduled days of work.

When I say minimal needs I mean diapers, wipes, $100 tops no more spent on groceries and gas money to get back and forth to work. On top of rent and the bills being payed.

So I had to pick up hours to be able to save some for next month and for Incase if emergency funds and to be honest pay a 2 late bills on my internet and tv.

So I only have 2 days off for the entire month, and I work as a CNA it’s a shitty job literally. An I love helping the residence but my co-workers are draining and my job is physically demanding and I get told what to do all day and I have to make everyone else happy at work and do everything to their liking.

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SEX PART:

When I come home I shower, shave and scrub my body and wash my hair, brush my teeth and when we go to lay down at around 12pm because I don get off of work til 10:15-10:30, my significant other wants to have sex.

An I am always down to have sex with him, but these last 3 nights we’ve tried. I’ve had no pleasure and to be honest he expects me to do all the work, to work him up to sex, dirty talking him, and getting him hard and giving him oral and then hopping on top and riding him.

An he gets mad when I say I’m to tired and sore to get on top tonight and or that I don’t want to have sex. So I let him just fuck me.

He never wants to foreplay anymore unless it’s for him and he gets mad when I try and get him to he says he just wanted to have sex and go to bed not get crazy with it.

He use to before. Idk I’ve tried to express my feelings to him. He doesn’t seem to care at all.

For me I guess I feel like a freaking blow up doll sometimes, like I don’t matter as long as he gets his bout of pleasure.