I am getting my 6 week postpartum check on Monday. Which means I suppose the fun can resume?... But I am really, really, really self conscious about it to the point where I am actually getting waves of anxiety when we are cuddling and kissing. I had my first son and had not had sex after he was conceived until I got into my new relationship which was around 3 years. So by that time I was really tight again and never had any issues. But with our baby I just had, the labor was worse, the healing was worse and I had severe... like uncontrolled urine incontinence during the first maybe 3 weeks. I had to wear diapers and 4 pads attached to that just to be able to go outside for a quick trip to the doctor or store because if I coughed or laughed or moved wrong I would pee myself. Now at 6 weeks it is far, far better... but I am still wearing a pad normally because occasionally I do pee. Which I am associating with meaning that everything must be a lot looser then before I had the baby, because I never had this with my first son, and my first son was actually a big baby. I am afraid to have sex, I am afraid I am not tight and that he will think it's not good. He was married before and he has 3 kids with his wife previously, but all 3 were born by C-section... so I am afraid that he is going to be expecting me to be just as tight as I was before having the baby because although he has 3 kids he never experienced the differnce of before and after of sex with a woman who has actually had a vaginal birth. I don't know what to do to make myself feel more confident and I don't know if there is any real way to make my vagina tighter again. Please let me know your experiences and if anything worked for you. I know he would never say anything to me, and he loves me so much that I am sure even if it wasn't good he wouldn't really care... but still... I am just feel so nervous and so much anxiety about it. I don't want there to be a huge difference for either of us, and I don't want to ruin enjoying sex with my Husband because of the insecurities.

Help! 😞🙏🏻