I need some help. Some motivation. Something. I’m tired of trying on clothes and either not finding anything that fits or feeling like I want to bury myself under layers. I can’t just go shopping, for me it always ends in tears. I can’t wear the cute stuff and I feel like I’m stuck shopping in areas that are way too old for me. My inner self is really bohemian and that’s the style I would love to achieve fashion wise.

I am currently about 230 lbs. only 5 ft tall and most of my weight is my chest and belly. I can’t afford a gym membership so I need advice on things I can do at home. Both exercise and food wise. I have a picky husband so that makes the food part hard but he’s very supportive and will usually try things if I make them.

I plan on cutting pop today. Gonna stick to water and my water flavor packets from now on.

I have DDP yoga maybe I’ll finally open it and try that. I’ll probably download my fitness pal again too.

Any advice, motivation or buddies I can make a long the way I would really appreciate it. This has been a lifelong struggle for me.