So I'm into my 35th week of pregnancy right now with my first, it's a boy 😄💙.

I've always wanted a baby boy!!

I'm 23 now, I've had baby fever since about 14 or 15...lmao.

Although I am excited I've had mixed feelings this whole pregnancy...I've bounced from wanting it to happen (for years), to being happy and excited when it did happen, to doubting if it's really what I wanted when I realized shit just got real.

Now in my 35th week, I'm starting to get down about it again.

I think I'm just bored right now and have a lot on my mind from the relationship with the father, to the state that my social life is in, to being anxious to move into my new place in a day.

I am also very bored with my life right now as I'm not working, and don't have much else to do. So I think I'm just getting too in my head and bored/cabin fever. I also think that once I get settled in my new place tomorrow I will feel a lot of long lost confidence and self esteem that I've lost over the last little while due to various circumstances. So I'm wishing this next day would just get over with already. My living situation has been less than ideal, and I think that's a big part of why I feel this way right now.

The thought that gets me down is if I'm bored right now, how will I feel when I have a kid and it's more limiting on what I can do and when, from having people over to holding a job.

I know I can get childcare at least a few days a week to get a part time job if I get too bored...but obviously I don't want to do that right away.

I just need some insight as to what others experiences with this was and how it was anticipating the arrival of the baby vs when it was actually there.

Thanks all.