To my sweet blueberry.

I carried you for every second of your life, and I will love you for every single second of mine.

I’m so sorry I couldn’t help you grow inside me. I don’t know what I done wrong but please know that I love you so so much & I’m so sorry we weren’t able to meet each other.

In the 7 weeks you were real, I had planned out parts of our future together in my head. I dreamt about our adventures. I thought a lot about how I would raise you, and what you would think of me as your mum. Over and over I pictured you cradled in your Dad’s arms.

I was going to carry you in a sling and have you sleeping next to me for as long as you wanted to.

I wondered if you would be a happy baby, and if I would take you to baby groups. Your Dad wanted you to like Dinosaurs.

I felt that you were a girl, and I’ve named you Matilda, I hope you like your new name as much as I do!

I had big dreams for you, baby girl. I saw us travelling together and laughing so so much. I thought about quitting my job just to be your Mum, because you were going to be the best thing in my life.

I’ll never be the same after this, sweet girl. Mummy loves you more than anything. Sleep tight x