Ok I have been stressing this whole pregnancy. I know most women are super excited and they cant wait and they love it even through all the aches and pains... but im almost 38 weeks, I have not enjoyed this hardly at all and I would consider myself having a fairly easy pregancy compared to some other post by some other sept. Mommies (not trying to be rude or boastful by saying that either) im just saying physically it hasnt been that bad, still aint other than some BH's every now and then. But mentally I am just losing my sh*t I feel so depressed and horrible all the time... I cant stop crying and worrying what the hell am I gonna do I cant sleep im over thinking everything I really havent been happy through none of this. Like I wanted to do maternity photos in the beginning thinking oh by then I will be into it... but oh no its just getting worse I didn't do any photos I havent put anything on FB only close family and some friends know im even pregnant not all my friends and not even all my family... I see some have already given birth and im over here like can I have 3 maybe 4 more months! I feel im so not ready though and with only 2 weeks to go and obviously any moment as well judging by all the early birth I see in sept bumps im freaking out!! Sorry I know its a long post but and many wont read all this its just feels good to get it out and now I might be able to sleep... just thankful I do have a place to get it all out without re-telling my SO or mom... GLOW has really helped me a lot.