Hello!

I've been with my man 6 month and on new year <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> I got anxiety attack.. I had like 4 times after October and my bf had handle it quite good until new year <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a>.. Well I struggle with anxiety (so I struggle with self confidence and look at stuff that isn't real) and now me and my bf having pause since he is now burned out and trying dealing with him self (been rough desember). I have talked with my family about it and I know I have to just wait until he is ready. But it hurts so much that I just don't know what to do.. I sitting here with a disgusting feeling and thinking the worst! (Trying to think positive tho)😭😭 I'm not trying to push him at all and let him get the space that he need, heard all the advice from my family but.. yeah idk..

I love him so deeply that it hurts to be separated and knowing that he is hurt to.. like I can see future with him and build a family with him.. He even told that he could see him self being with me in future. He tells me that he loves me and misses me with a empty feeling.. or it feel like empty.. and he have told me he sometimes cries in bed when he is thinking about me in this situation.

But atm he doesn't have any feeling for anyone and kinda living like a zombie. He may be depressed (cuz he said that he almost couldn't take the trash out..) and trying dealing with him self. But so hard to handle this.. just felt for it to share it you guys.. I really hope that he choose the right path 💕