is to feel so much love for something growing inside me. I’ve never felt the joy of being pregnant, even if it was only for a little while. I would give anything to feel my baby growing inside me. To know that it’s not all in my head and that there really is a baby in there. Why does it have to be so damn hard? Why are our chances only 33%? I feel an ache in my belly that won’t go away. I feel a heaviness but also emptiness. I feel like my husband will be disappointed that I can’t get pregnant. I feel like I’ll never be pregnant. I want this so bad it hurts. But I also feel like wanting it so much is preventing it from happening? Everyone says “just don’t stress about it” UM WHAT? How can you NOT stress!? I’m sorry if this is just rambly but I needed to vent..