I feel drained 😭😩 I feel like giving up

EDIT: I’m sorry for the ladies that have been trying for years. I’ve only been trying for months but my heart hurts every time I see a BFN. I was suppose to give birth in January 2019 but my son came early (September 2018) he was stillborn. Don’t try to make me feel bad for feeling drained and wanting to give up. My feelings are my feelings and I had to pack my sons baby clothes and baby stuff away. I had to give them away so I don’t cry every time passing it so YUP I’ve been trying since I lost my son and i haven’t been trying long but I am drained and heart broken and angry and I just want to give up. IM JUST VENTING so if u can’t be nice to me then don’t leave a comment.