I’m not clinically depressed because I can’t afford to go to a clinic.

I just know this feeling is bad. Hopeless. Anxious. Stressed. I have terrible thoughts pop into my head about death and loss of family members even my daughter. Then I spiral into my own thoughts of what I’d do if it’d actually happen. I have thoughts of my SO cheating on me when he’s given me no reasons to think that but I still end up being bitchy towards him.

I try to keep myself busy around the house or with work so my thoughts don’t creep back in.

I don’t want to be depressed but I feel like I should talk to a professional. I just don’t have insurance and couldn’t afford meds if they were to prescribe them either way.

What do other people like me do?