I love kids so much. My husband and I want a baby. I have lupus which may or may not have impacted our pregnancies to help along our 2 miscarriages. I feel like my poor husband deserves better. He knew about this from the beginning and is super supportive, but I feel like the poor guy deserves a family in the way he wants to create it and I'm devastated to think I may not be able to carry to term and give him biological children.

I feel like this is proof about how broken my body is, and I don't know if I, or he, can handle another miscarriage. Trying for babies now seems to have the taint of the likelyhood that well lose another baby. I feel like he deserves better.