The day after Christmas I got a positive digital (4 days before period) and I had just finished a round of UTI medication on Christmas.

Fast forward, I was confirmed I’m having a misscarriage on 1/6 my levels went from 22 on 1/4 to 0 on 1/6.

I have 4 children and we thought we were done having babies BUT now that I’m going through this misscarriage, I feel like I would regret not trying for baby 5.

Most family is supportive except my mom (who’s my best friend) and she says she’s worried for us financially. She isn’t a huge fan of big families and I’m so torn.

I’m scared to go through a misscarriage again and I’m scared because we live on one income and are already a little tight on money. Any advice? I feel empty and every time I see pregnancy posts or hear of pregnancy updates from friends or see baby stuff I feel sad and it stings to see it :(